a new friend

my friend embracing the sunrise - Blomidon Provincial Park, Nova Scotia

When in Nova Scotia I met a new friend.

When I thought about it I realized that I have not made a friend in about 30 years.

I have recently started afresh two friendships that began about 30 years ago and two very good friends have died but mostly I have counted on the few friends I gained about 30 years ago to keep me content in friendship. I see how that molds one into a pattern that I hadn’t questioned much. I didn’t feel it necessary to make new friends but I also didn’t see how unchanging my viewpoint was.

Of course this has changed now over the last couple of years as I have been seeing many truths about this world and I have embarked on a journey that is allowing me to look at how I can change and grow.

My new friend and I connected pretty much immediately and it was so wonderful and eye opening. She is very loving, accepting and joyous. And she embraces to a stronger degree all the things that I have been learning over the past year.

I began to realize how little I have been sharing with people in my life the things I find important. I had put on hold a number of things that I had thought about and acted on over 30 years ago. This hold was a place of security I thought but I see now how it was a place of fear.

It was like I was putting on the shelf my own self, as if it was not important for me to explore myself. This shelf of course contains all of the denied and buried emotions from the choices I have made throughout my life.

This is starting to open up as I get a glimpse of the vast creativity that is embedded in our world and universe.

I thank my new friend for helping me in this regard.