A few weeks ago when I was considering what I have become addicted to I suggested that I wasn’t sure about the effect of reading and that I would need to think about that.
A few mornings ago I woke up and realized that reading has been a main addiction of mine since I was in my late teens. I find in amazing that only a little while ago I actually didn’t know how much the process of reading has kept me away from my inner feelings.
Thinking about this now I feel how frightening it is with the thought of giving up reading. This is telling me the extent that reading has on my being.
I was reading a book called Solitude by the man Bob Kull when I had this conversion in thinking. Bob wrote about his experience going into solitude for a year in Chile. In the course of the year he only saw two other people for a couple of hours one time.
Bob had brought with him to the coast of Chile the makings for a small cabin, an inflatable boat and kayak, a lot of food, and the ability to charge batteries and be able to send out once a month an email to tell people he was okay. He had no other contact or communication with the outside world.
In the book he wrote a lot about giving up the things that he did addictively to get to his core being. He brought a lot of books with him, he was doing a PHD with the topic of solitude and most of the books had to do with that. He did cease a lot of reading by the end of the year.
As this was the book I was reading when I had this brainwave, I will now see how long I can go before I pick up another book. I do read some things on the Internet for information. As I am building a website I will read information about what I am wanting to do with the website.
As I have almost always had 1 or 2 books on the go, and I would sit and read at various times throughout the day, some days more than others, I will have time whereby I will feel I have nothing to do. For these times I hope I will be able to do nothing and just sit and feel my feelings. I may find myself doing more physical things than I have been doing, we will see.
Bob Kull also writes about being addicted to writing. He wrote journal entries for most days throughout his year of solitude but at the end he was not writing everyday and he did write about wanting to not write at all for an extended time.
My writing of this newsletter does not feel like I am writing addictively. I don’t push any of my writings now, it is things that bubble up through my consciousness that I find beneficial to write down and post. This is quite different than my previous newsletter whereby I was addictively looking for things to write about. The writing process was a beneficial thing then as well but not the activity prior to it.
We will see how I feel about writing in the coming weeks.
I do not speak for ‘The Sovereign’s Way’; I am just sharing some of my experience that has come about because of TSW course and my relationship to it. https://thesovereignsway.com/law-for-mankind-options/?link=45555